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Post by JayThorne on Jul 11, 2015 0:08:15 GMT -8
The questions that followed made Joakim sigh. At times like these, he felt it better to not explore these possibilities till the initial fear wore off, but at least Grim wasn't handling this alone. He leaned his head back against the wall when Grim dismissed the idea of him going to get the first aid kit, and he was just going to leave the conversation at that.
Silence could help as much as talking did, but Joakim had nothing nice to say on the matter outside of 'Stop thinking too much' and 'You're fine. Let it come to you.', both of which didn't sound the least comforting.
Grim's question pierced that silence though. For the briefest moment, his body tensed. Was he afraid of dying? Was he afraid, on that freezing cold winter day? His fist clenched involuntarily, like he was still holding the axe he wielded so proudly in battle on that day, and his grip slackened as he quickly registered that he was grasping air.
A thousand years, and the memory still felt like it was yesterday, even if the impact had dulled considerably. His mind had forgotten the sting of the incident. His body hadn't.
Joakim closed his eyes, mumbling a small "Lort..." under his breath. Bringing one hand up, he rubbed his neck briefly before resting his hand on the back of his neck.
"No." came the simple, truthful reply. "I wasn't afraid of dying. ...Under normal circumstances, I wasn't. Back then, we welcomed death with open arms, especially if we were soldiers or warriors. I was a mercenary. It would be a dream come true to die in battle." He turned to look at Grim, as if gauging whether or not the boy would be interested in listening to his old man's tales.
"...But I suppose... I was afraid." he let his gaze slip to the plain bedsheets he had as he finished, "I was afraid of dying when I haven't righted what I've wronged."
Shifting slightly in his seat, Joakim sank till he half-lay on the bed, propped up only by his elbows as his hands folded over his torso, "And I did. I died without a chance to correct my mistakes."
"I was afraid."
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Post by MIRG on Jul 11, 2015 1:36:52 GMT -8
Lying his head on his crossed arms and propped knees, Grim listened with a wary heart. It would be good to take things off his mind. The cultural difference was apparent and it was hard to fathom the pride and dignity associated with a glorified death. As a soldier, it would be the ultimate honor to sacrifice for their country. But he never was one, and never will be. Did Gerhart, Rafael or even Arthur felt like this? He'll never know.
His gaze rested upon the viking when he hesitated. With little empathy, the boy was still noticed the anguish in his words. Giving a bitter laugh, Grim kept his gaze on the viking as he added lowly, "Seems like you're not as tough as you look huh..." There was a vague desire to pry into the viking's past, but Grim abstained himself. It could be really sensitive and even though he willingly shared some details, the redhead might not share the same sentiments. To share his own thoughts now would be perfect, but alas, he does not remember the final moments of his short life. I was truly given too short of a time to be alive...
The momentary silence that followed was oddly comfortable, but the boy still continued in a semi-serious tone, "Now, we have a second go, are you still afraid?"
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Post by JayThorne on Jul 11, 2015 2:15:21 GMT -8
Joakim shot Grim a look when he heard the younger man mumble, "Hvad?" he asked, unable to catch most of what Grim said. He only saw a lingering hesitating look on the German boy's face. There was another short silence between them before Grim asked his next question. Joakim found this a lot easier to answer as he turned to look at the wall on the other end of the room, "No."
He let out a low, humorless chuckle as a memory resurfaced, "Just between you and me, I was a suicidal idiot a few hundred years into my Apprenticeship. Had to be put under Inkidortes' care so I don't start lashing out at people while I'm busy trying to off myself. ...I wanted to bring some people down with me, and I didn't care who." he stopped there though, sighing as he ran a hand through his hair, "That's ancient history though, I'll bore you to death with the details. But yeah, I'm not afraid. I'm already dead. The next one is for good, sure, but can't get more dead than I already am."
Joakim shrugged and reached out to clap a hand on Grim's shoulder. He gripped that shoulder, shaking him lightly, "Are you?"
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Post by MIRG on Jul 11, 2015 4:12:00 GMT -8
Firm answer, the german thought with slightly upturned mouth. It grew into a half-smile, half-frown at the mention of Joakim's past. "Du bist ein dummkopf..." He muttered under his breath. It was difficult to believe that someone with seemingly such strong resolve would be like this, but people do change with time. Especially with centuries. Grim should know better; given that he had undergone pretty huge turns in his behavior as well, just not as extreme as the viking himself.
"Ah well...I'd actually like to hear more of that... just not now. Over tea next time..." A blank face resumed as he slowly processed the information. First impressions were so misleading and this viking was turning out a lot different from his initial constructed image. It was a good thing, he supposed.
He winced a little as he was shaken lightly, the abrasions on his face (once again) rubbing against his arms. God, that was painful... and annoying... Sitting up straight, he glared at Joakim for a bit as he begin recalling his afterlife. Scared? He's dead as far as he can remember and the promise to be able to see his family again seems more like a distant fantasy than a goal. Even so, he still holds onto this thin silver lining.
"I have never been concerned with that. I have nothing left to worry." He implied in a light, casual tone as he rubs his cheeks to test the pain. Still fairly fresh. It was going to be a hindrance if he continues to leave it, he deduced reluctantly.
"...Could you get me the contents in my 3rd drawer?" The german asked hesitantly, pointing upwards. There was something exceedingly embarrassing about asking for help when he had brushed it off twice a short while ago.
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Post by JayThorne on Jul 11, 2015 22:19:37 GMT -8
Oh, he was interested? That was new. Not many people were interested in what he had to say. They'd rather he keep his mouth shut, in fact. Scoffing, Joakim shook his head, "I've been around a really long time but I didn't take German lessons." The implication that he didnt understand Grim couldn't be clearer.
He hasn't been around long enough to understand German, but he sure as hell was around long enough to pick up on Latin and Welsh.
He raised a brow when Grim asked him for a quick favor, though and pushed himself off the bed slowly. Sighing, he pulled out the drawer Grim indicated and put his hands on his hips, "Alright, what am I looking for here?" He asked, tilting his head to look at Grim.
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Post by MIRG on Jul 12, 2015 0:24:09 GMT -8
"It's nothing... I was just talking to myself." He iterated casually. And he was. It's quite amusing how Joakim caught onto his mother tongue. Usually, people dismissed things that they did not understand. Like times when he talked in German.
Sighing, he crossed his legs as he glanced at the redhead, tapping the edge of the bed with his fingers. "Band-aids, antiseptics and the small packet of cotton. Pass me all the bottles if you can't read them." His flat tone hinted a little mockery at the end of his instructions. There were 2-3 bottles in there after all. It wasn't the right time for snarky comments, but he couldn't stop himself. Mentally reprimanding himself, the tired german added, "...The one that has Dettol written on it. Thanks." He ought to be more serious at times when asking for favors.
Feeling around the bed, Grim lazily grabbed his quarter-full bottle of mineral water and gave it a light swirl. This should be enough... Giving a hard blink, he wiped off the residual tear from his puffy eyes.
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Post by JayThorne on Jul 12, 2015 3:21:28 GMT -8
The frown on his face may have worked its magic at last when Grim finally gave him clearer instructions as he reached into the drawer and pulled out the items that Grim asked for. He drops them on the bed next to Grim's feet, the bottle of antiseptic being the last item he dropped before he closed the drawer and sat back down at the edge of the bed, "Your glasses are on the table, by the way." he said simply, motioning to the wheely table that was by the side of the bed.
He grabbed his neglected sandwich, putting it back in his food drawer before leaning back on his hands, "Hey Grim, I'm not sure if you remember, but back when we were down there, you mentioned someone named Victor. Who's that?" Joakim looked over his shoulder at the younger man as he waited for an answer.
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Post by MIRG on Jul 12, 2015 6:50:40 GMT -8
Glasses, huh? The young man glanced over to the point of interest before dropping the idea; there was no point with the glasses hindering the tending of his own abrasions. The german still nodded lightly, affirming that he heard the viking. Fishing out a handkerchief from his pocket, Grim dampened it with some water and began lightly wiping his face. He elicited soft hissing with every single wipe, but couldn't quite clean his face easily.
There was a momentary silence as he remained lost for words, although his outlook remained ever focused on his arduous task.
"What did I say about him, Joakim?" He inquired in a peculiarly calm manner as his soft gaze fixed on his team-mate; not exactly addressing the question. He began wiping on the same spot where the smeared blood was, but little did he realize that he still hadn't completely gotten it off. After a few more wipes, his frustration began to rise along with the increasing pain from friction at the same area.
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Post by JayThorne on Jul 12, 2015 7:28:22 GMT -8
Watching the younger man tend to his own wounds got increasingly annoying. Growling at the hissing sounds that Grim was making, Joakim reached out towards Grim and snatched the handkerchief out of his hand when he next pulled the damp cloth away from his face, "Gimme that..." he snarled before turning in his seat so he could look at Grim. Taking the bottle of water, Joakim dampened the handkerchief a little more before reaching over with his free hand and pulling Grim towards him by the hand, "Should've asked if Ams had a mirror handy..." he grumbled as he tilted Grim's chin up to look at him when the younger man sat up properly, "Hold still." came the simple instruction as Joakim began to wipe Grim's face clean.
Cleaning wounds was something simple enough for him to do. He's done it to himself more times than he cared to count when he wasn't busy evading 'capture' or getting dragged to the infirmary. Seriously, he had no time to lay down and rest when they could be treating someone else who needed it. The viking made several noises of disapproval when Grim tried to pull away, maybe he was being too rough? "Suck it up, I'm almost done. Just hold still or it'll hurt more."
Sighing, Joakim instructed Grim to close his eyes, dabbing the dried blood off of the young man's eyelids as he addressed Grim's last question, "You didn't say much. Nothing that made too much sense, I guess. All I know is you said 'Victor', then something that sounded like ' no guns'. An unarmed soldier you knew or something?" he didn't mean to pry, he was just curious. Plus, talking about a person shouldn't trigger anything, right? Unless this Victor person was the one who shot him, then.... welp.
Oops?
Putting the handkerchief away, Joakim turned Grim's face this way and that lightly, making a small sound of approval now that the blood was cleaned off, "Alright, do I do the same with the antiseptic now or something?" he let go of Grim's face, reaching out for the bottle of antiseptic and popped the cap, waiting for further instructions. He'd rather be walked through this than let Grim flounder around and put antiseptic on his face like he's putting on make-up, really.
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Post by MIRG on Jul 26, 2015 2:08:55 GMT -8
"Ah..." Grim only glanced over at his handkerchief being seized with a baffled expression on his face. It didn't take long before it turned into a cringe and more hissing at the rough handling. His instincts made him want to pull away but he struggled to stay still. It was an odd feeling, since he was usually not on the receiving end.
Having little choice, the shorter male merely pouts as the other attended to his abrasions. Closing his eyes as instructed, he heaved a sigh. When was the last time he was cared for like this? The way Joakim was treating him reminded him of his own sister, who was rough for a nurse, but precise and quick. "...You don't really have to do this you know...." He murmured in a hazy manner. It's kind of relaxing when someone tends to you.
There was a comforting silence before the young german took in a subtle breath, revealing in a somewhat serious tone, "I am Victor." There was no explanation nor further comment, just the short revelation. Opening his eyes, he turned towards the antiseptics like nothing had happened and continued with a softer tone, "Just put the cotton at the opening and dampen it with the medication. Then you can pass it to me, I can apply it..." There was hesitation in his voice with regards to self-applying since he couldn't quite see his own wounds. Plus, the viking would likely be watching as he did it. How troubling...
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Post by JayThorne on Aug 14, 2015 7:19:58 GMT -8
Joakim only huffed when Grim told him that he didn't have to tend to his wounds. At least he was sitting still, which was making his job a little easier. With Grim's instructions, Joakim got the handkerchief wet with antiseptic, capped the bottle and set it aside before holding Grim's chin once more and dabbing the wounds with them as carefully as he could. It might still sting, but he was trying to be gentler with the smaller man, "No need, I got this." he murmured, brows furrowed in concentration.
He did take a moment to process what Grim had just said, tilting his head slightly, "...Victor? ...Is that your middle name or something? Didn't think you'd refer to yourself in third person when you're half-asleep. In my time, people having two names wasn't really common at all, and people with two names are usually either related to important people, like a Chief's son or your parents just wanted you to sound cooler than you look. It's a hit-and-miss sometimes. Some live up to their names and the others not so much." Joakim chuckled as he dabbed at Grim's wounds a bit more before letting him go, finally done with the amateurish treatment, "Done." he announced, putting the hanky aside, "Go get some rest while I clean this shit up," he motioned vaguely to the handkerchief and the bottle of antiseptic beside him.
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Post by MIRG on Aug 15, 2015 1:07:44 GMT -8
With a soft sigh, the young man didn't bother to argue with the stubborn viking. As long as he got it treated, then he could rest at ease too. He squirmed a little from the treatment but lesser this time as his shoulders slumped. There was something really intoxicating about medication and unlike some of his patients, the familiar smell of antiseptic actually kept him somewhat calm.
The evening sun warmed the quaint room, and as Joakim persisted, Grim couldn't help but take a sharp inhale. Should he draw the line... or keep spilling...? He seemed interested. "...Somezing like zat. I clearly did not live up to my name. Victor no longer exists; He was left in the battlefield." It was kind of a mundane recount, and the blonde doubts that the older man would want to hear much of it. "It's... a boring tale. Just stick to Grim, Joakim." He slowly turned towards the window, with the evening rays filtering in and illuminating the room.
"Thanks for ...all of that." He spoked in a low tone, a slight smile still hanging barely on his face. His expression was soft, with most of his energy left for much deeper thoughts of his relapse. "I'm taking tomorrow off. They'll ask about these otherwise." The german continued, pointing at his wounds. Then, Grim quietly stood up and head towards his bed instead. It would be imposing of him to stay afterall. The medic did not notice that his phone was in fact, buzzing on the fur bed incessantly, seeking for his presence for the midnight shift.
None of that mattered; not to the tired man with a vacant stare in his eyes as he laid back down on his own sheets without a word.
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Post by JayThorne on Aug 18, 2015 19:02:13 GMT -8
The older man put the things away, listening to Grim talk as he did so. He waited for Grim to finish, watching the medic climb the ladder to get to his bunk before replying,
"I don't know about that. The only thing left behind on that battlefield is an empty shell of a body," the drawer closed with a dull thud as Joakim put the antiseptic away, "Victor may not be alive, but he exists. Just under a different name for his own reasons." Once Grim settled down, Joakim stood on his tip-toes slightly, reaching over to ruffle Grim's hair, "We'll talk again after you've rested if you want, just get some sleep for now, kid." He gave Grim a cheeky grin before pulling away to make sure he didn't leave anything on his bed.
And there was Grim's phone.
Joakim was about to tell Grim about the phone until he read part of the message flashing on the screen. They were asking him to take the midnight shift. Sitting at the edge of his bed, Joakim picked up the german young man's phone and opened the message.
Yep, they wanted him on midnight duty.
Working the phone shouldn't be that tough... after fiddling with the phone a little, Joakim managed to find the 'reply' function and typed a message in response to Grim's colleague;
[This is Grim's teammate. He's in severe need of rest atm and we're not letting him work late till he's fully rested. He'll report back to work the day after tomorrow so you'll have to find someone else to cover for him till then.]
With that done, he sent the message and plopped the phone next to his pillow. Grim would be able to survive without his phone for a whole day, right? Picking up his own phone, Joakim lay in his bed and decided he'd kick back for now, too. The report could wait.
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Post by MIRG on Aug 20, 2015 18:14:35 GMT -8
Grim only curled up tighter in his blanket towards the wall, clutching onto his stomach when the viking spoke. "I'll be fine..." He mumbled softly, with a bitter feel still stirring subtly. As Joakim ruffled his hair, the young german shut his eyes and focused on sleeping. Trauma... can't be removed entirely, and it was a pity that a doctor couldn't plaster the pain and fix himself. His tensed clench gradually relaxed as sleep claimed him. The presence of another was truly endearing and even if it was just a little bit, the viking was finally unravelling a bit of the forsaken dark knots that Grim had sealed up deep within him, beneath that impervious exterior of jokes and smiles. Tomorrow was a new day... right?FIN
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